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The beginning of 2012 has brought with it a rather unexpected event in the mammasaver household. Our little lad has started to self wean.

Huzzah! Some might think, but oh boy, stopping breastfeeding has brought along some rather tricky issues along for the ride.

I am a firm believer that if women know what to expect about breastfeeding, then they are more likely to persevere with it, rather giving up. Of course, it's an incredibly special experience, but not one without its issues.

In a similar spirit, I thought I would share our experience of ending breastfeeding, as many women tend to go through this part without the support of midwives, health visitors and others.

Breastfeeding has been good to us:
  • It got our little lad up to a mighty 22lbs before solids.
  • Calmed him down if he was agitated/tired/cross.
  • It was an incredibly special experience for both of us.
  • It has saved us a fortune on formula.
  • It's (frankly) one of the loveliest things to do.
Not to mention the various health and well-being benefits that breastfeeding brings, it has been a truly wonderful experience.

However.


When our 19month old decided that he shall be a big boy and take cow's milk from a cup four days ago, my hormones went into meltdown (they still are) and we are both feeling more than a bit delicate, emotionally speaking. 

This translates to:
  • Little lad crying very hard if we're apart (ie not in the same room).
  • Me crying if I'm away from him (in the evenings).
  • A profound worry that he'll find it difficult to adjust without his nursing chill-out time.
I'm reluctant to confuse our little lad and my hormones by starting nursing again, but it is so very very tempting to do so. 

I'm looking forward to being over this hurdle, and getting back to a bit of even-tempered normality. How and when that will happen, I'm not quite sure yet.
 
However, through the fog of dread that I've done something terribly wrong, I do wonder if other women go through similar feelings when they wean. Am I simply at the mercy of rampant hormones, or is what I'm experiencing simply a reaction to moving away from our lad's babyhood?

I'd love to hear your stories in the comments section below - whatever your experience. I really do think that an honest discussion about breastfeeding will help other nursing mothers, rather than pretending that it's all just rosy.


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Comments

Claire@Mummy Plum
07/01/2012 10:48

Great post. My little man stopped at about 12 months ( not self weaned exactly...more the fact I'd had enough, if I am honest.) Looking back, I'm not sure if that was the right thing to do, as we had lots of problems come to the fore once we stopped. Principally, his sleeping became a nightmare - as he had used the breast as a comfort way to get to sleep before bed, and back to sleep in the night. (6 months later we had to start a sleep programme to help with this.)

But for me...the upshot of it all was, without the oxytocin and mother nature's lovely hormones, I suddenly could not cope with the sleep deprivation, tiredness etc whereas before I had been fine. (Which funnily enough then saw the onset of my problem with bruxism. I am sure the two are linked.)

Now he is 2 and a half and he is still very 'booby'. He has a natural instinct to put his hand inside my top for comfort/ when he is tired. I don't really mind (unless we're in public) - although all my tops are very stretched!

The end of breast feeding is a really emotional phase. You are letting go of something and you know you won't get it back, and it can be hard. It's wonderful that you did it for so long, and waited for him to be ready. (Wish I had done the same). In my experience the closeness can still be there, just in different ways. (Fondling! - I prefer to think of it like a kitten that podges the mother cat.) My one piece of advice from bitter experience would be to make sure you don't overcompensate for the pre bed comfort/ feed by doing what I did, sitting by cot/cuddling to sleep/ holding hands - that created a whole set of new problems.

Sorry for the long comment. Sending you some virtual hormones to pep you up :0) x

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mammasaver
07/01/2012 12:47

Hi Claire,

Thank you so so much for your really helpful and insightful comment. I'm sorry to hear that the drop in hormones made you manage your days and feelings so differently.

I wouldn't have believed how much they change how you feel, unless I had gone through it myself.

Our little lad's sleeping is a bit strange too at the moment, and I'm sure it's related to the weaning. A tough thing for mamma and child, I think.

Please don't apologise for the long comment - it's a wonderfully thoughtful comment which has helped alot. Thank you!

PS Keep sending the hormones through - we may be in for a long haul!

mammasaver x

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Very INFORMATIVE and just FANTASTIC! I was looking for the related information. Thanks a lot it is very useful for me. Would love to read some pieces on the topic.

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07/01/2012 23:27

Breastfeeding your toddler until he was nineteen months is a wonderful thing and something that you should be proud of.

As for adjusting with out his nursing chill-out time, does he have a comforter that he could use? If so you could maybe try a new chill-out routine with a book and a comforter, it may not work ,but it's worth a go.

It'll probably take a while for you both to adjust to this new phase in your lives and hopefully your hormones will settle down soon.

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mammasaver
08/01/2012 13:50

Hi Workingmum,

Thanks so much for your comment and encouragement!

He does have a comforter - any necklace that I have on. I have tried introducing teddies etc, but he ignores them and goes for the necklace!

Thank you so much again, looking forward to things settling down too!

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08/01/2012 15:58

Awww I totally sympathise and hope you'll both feel a little better as time goes on. I would say that once your hormones settle down you'll feel a lot better and therefore so will your little boy - they are all so very intuitive to our state of mine and emotions. It seems you are doing all the right things so it's just a question of time to adjust to your new routine and the start of your mutual independence - this is something to be cherished and built on.

I exclusively breastfed my 3 (born 19 and 20 months apart, 2 girls and a boy) and it was hardest to stop with my boy so not sure if that means something. Anyway, it's a natural development and you'll get there at your own pace.
Best of luck!

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mammasaver
08/01/2012 22:46

Hi coco,

Thank you very much for your very reassuring comment - my hormones are settling down a bit, as are little lad's moods, just as you said they might.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with weaning too - you hear so little about it, and it's hard to know whether you're on the right track or not.

Thank you again for your really, really helpful comment.

A little reassurance goes a very long way!

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10/01/2012 16:25

Thanks for this and I am sure it will help others.
I could not hack breastfeeding so have no experience to offer on this one. I just could not cope and gave up after a few days. Not proud of that but just how my life is/was.
I hope your balance returns soon and I am really pleased you have already had some helpful comments left. I will mention this post next week as you did not enter it on the link so I inadvertently left it off today's round up.Sorry

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mammasaver
11/01/2012 15:43

Hi Kate,

Thanks for your lovely comment!

Normality slowly returning, boobs slowly deflating, hormones balancing.

A rocky week and a half!

mammasaver

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chickenruby
10/01/2012 21:36

I dont remember what age my 3 were when i stopped breast feeding but i remember how i felt, i was emotionally relieved but then felt guilty for feeling like that, then came the pain and i ended up having to express the milk to wash it down the sink and regretted stopping...however it had to come to an end at some point

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mammasaver
11/01/2012 15:45

Hello, Chicken!

Oh, there's nothing like the guilt, is there? I'd never guess I'd feel guilty about STOPPING breastfeeding.

Thanks so much for taking the time to comment.

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Natalie
16/01/2012 21:29

Thank you for posting this, it makes me feel better.
I'm having terrible feelings of guilt about stopping feeding my 17 month old. It's been a really lovely experience, something I never expected it to be.
It's the first day I haven't fed her, we've wound it down slowly to one feed a day, and yesterday was the last feed.
I have this awful feeling that I'm doing the wrong thing, that I should carry on and I'm really finding myself questioning why I'm weaning her. I feel like I'm depriving her in some way. (It doesn't help that she won't drink any other sort of milk, and we've tried them all) I know it has to happen eventually and these feelings are probably largely hormonal on my part, but it's really hard.
She on the other hand, seems absolutely fine!

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mammasaver
16/01/2012 21:52

Hi Natalie,

Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I really can empathise with your feelings of guilt, and feeling that you've done the wrong thing.

It's a dreadful feeling, compounded by raging hormones.

My hormones have settled down, and I don't feel so bad. However, I still do wonder why I did it - I know it 'must happen sometime' but I'm still uneasy about it.

If it helps, I find setting aside designated cosy time helps. We choose our favourite books of the day, cuddle up and read for 20 minutes.

I am getting more cuddles (which are lovely), and I feel our little boy is enjoying his independence a bit. Like your daughter, he seems fine!

Good luck, and please let us know how you get on.

PS nothing like the mamma guilt, is there?

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